Yesterday a fun package came in the mail.
Oooo I love packages! So what’s inside, what’s inside!?
Why it’s a book!
Have you read Intuitive Eating? It quite literally saved my sanity early this year when I was having a tough time with food.
I’ve never really had a difficult relationship with food. I’ve never been a “dietier” per se, and have always known that it’s better to just live an active lifestyle with a regular diet full of whole foods – instead of eating diet foods, avoiding treats and junk food for a short period of time while you’re “on a diet” to lose weight.
Once I figured out the math behind losing weight (calories in < calories out) weight loss came pretty easily. I counted calories to lose weight, but what it boiled down to was smaller portions, not going back for seconds and cutting out mindless eating combined with regular exercise.
What you don’t find out until after you’ve lost a significant amount of weight (35 lbs qualifies as significant for me) is that maintaining your weight can almost be harder than losing it in the first place.
Last year at this time I’d reached the weight I’d dreamed of for almost 15 years. I’d run my marathon. So now what? I was out of goals to work toward and felt like I had nothing exciting to look forward to anymore. I found myself turning to food for excitement and fun. I would restrict and “be good” during the week and then overeat on the weekends. As horribly embarrassing as it is for me to write it: I would seriously overindulge on sweets on the weekends. I want to backspace that last sentence right out but I’m leaving it in because I know now that I’m not alone. I sure felt alone back then though. “Back then” being only 9 short months ago.
I honestly thought I was losing my mind – it was almost as if I had some sort of eating disorder! Me! The girl who loves to eat! I definitely felt like it was out of my control. Sometimes I’d be almost physically incapable of stopping once I finally let myself have even one treat. I would get caught in that “well, I’ve blown it, might as well go nuts now” mentality. I would feel so guilty come Monday that I would restrict calories all week long to feel like I was making up for what I did over the weekend, promising myself that I’d never do that again. I would continue restricting calories for the second half of the week to save up calories knowing full well I’d splurge over the weekend – again promising myself that I wouldn’t go totally nuts.
But that “splurge” would inevitably turn into eating so much of some otherwise forbidden food that I would reach the point where I felt sick – both physically and mentally. This restricting and binging cycle allowed me to maintain my weight but it did a real number on me from a psychological stand point.
It was nasty cycle. I realized soon that this was not the way I wanted to live. I had to get to the bottom of what was going on – I’d never experienced anything like this before in my entire life. I knew it had to be possible to have a healthy relationship with food and also maintain my happy, healthy weight. These things couldn’t be mutually exclusive!
Enter: Intuitive Eating. I wasn’t blogging when I read this book but I have to give it a shout out because it truly turned things around for me. It pulled from me from the vicious cycle I’d gotten myself into. I read this book feeling like it was written just for me! The book describes 10 principles toward eating intuitively and while I found value in all 10 principles the big ones for me we’re honoring my hunger and making peace with food.
I got Intuitive Eating from library earlier this year and didn’t buy it because I got everything I needed from it while I had it on loan. It showed up in mailbox yesterday through thanks to this awesome website called Bookmooch! It’s a site that allows you to mooch books for free from other people – provided you list some books you have and are willing to allow people to mooch from you. All you have to do is pay for shipping your own books to other people and they pay to ship to you. I love Bookmooch and it’s a great way to swap out books I’m done with and get new books I want without having to pay for them OR pay late fees at the library! SCORE! I’ve mooched a bunch of great books and have emptied my book shelves of books I’m done with too.
I’d had Intuitive Eating on my “wish list” for a while and I got an email just recently when someone listed it in their inventory. I logged in and snagged it immediately and it came yesterday. The arrival of it prompted some reflection and lead to this post today. I’m very glad I own it now, and I’m even more glad I didn’t have to pay for it! I want to be able to refer to it if I ever need a refresher and I want to be able to loan it out to my friends and family if they’d like to read it.
Today was supposed to be a juice day but I dawdled too long at the computer this morning and before I knew it I was really hungry. I decided to honor my hunger and eat a bowl of cereal NOW rather than spend a half hour start to finish on juicing.
Sprinkled on fruit cereal this morning though the sweetness from the fruit easily masked any bitterness and they gave the cereal a subtle chocolaty flavor with a very nice crunch! Plus I love that they made the cereal completely raw. (Unsweetened cocoa powder is not.)
This morning’s fruit cereal combo was a diced banana, the last beat up pear and three chopped medjool dates all coated in ground flax. Sprinkled with some hand crushed walnuts and some cacao nibs and topped with unsweetened vanilla hemp milk.
Medjool dates in fruit cereal? Bliss. PURE. BLISS! I expected the cacao nibs to be the star but those chewy sweet dates stole the show!
Later this morning I had a couple of almond butter stuffed dates before I headed out for a nice leisurely Sunday long run. Yes. More dates. I’m making up for lost time apparently.
I was going to run 7 miles but felt so good at the 3+ mile mark that I opted to go the long way and do 8 instead. I was back in just over an hour.
Lunch today was a no brainer! We’ve got salad leftover from last night’s birthday dinner making lunch easy peasy.
Red leaf, carrots, orange cherry tomatoes, green pepper, cukes, alfalfa sprouts and a sprinkle of raw hemp seeds too. Heather told me this morning that she sprinkles hemp seeds on salad, so that’s what I did with the ones I bought yesterday. You can see them in their untidy glory around the edges of the plate. Honestly I couldn’t even taste them. I sampled a small handful before I put them on the salad though and they had a nice nutty flavor.
We’re off now to a picnic with friends to say good-bye to summer and welcome the official arrival of the new season. Autumn is near!